43 years ago i was brought into this world and at times i have felt like i didn’t belong here at all. My father didn’t want me so he left and it was just me and my mom then she remarried and all was fine i guess but he always treated me like i was nothing , I have always felt this way cause i have never had anyone but my grandfather and my uncle truly show me any affection. Don’t get me wrong my mom loves me dearly. But i was always nothing even my own grandmother wanted nothing to do with me. I have a brother who i am nothing too and sisters that i am nothing. I could just lay down and die but i always had my kids well the door just slammed on that today and as always i feel like nothing. Why??? Why am i in so much pain ? I have basically been nothing all my life why? Am i hurting so much? I may never understand why i feel this way but i will always keeping going cause just cause i am nothing doesn’t mean i can’t help someone else be something.