Warped View

Love you.

I  have thought i have been in love before but it looks like it wasn’t real till i met you. Your very voice stops me in my tracks, your touch and thoughts are all i think about. You mean more to me than you will ever know i hope you understand that i love you not matter what and someday i hope to marry you. But my fate is sealed to be alone and miserable . I will never forget the time we spent together and the love i have for you is never ending. I hope you don’t forget me, but you will. I love you Andrea.

Heartbroken.

Yet again i have gotten my heart broken by a lady that i truly and deeply loved, why must it always be like this ? Why do i give my love to a woman thinking its going to last and POOF!!!!  It’s over and done, what is wrong with me ? Why must i go threw this damn pain again why? Someone please tell me what i can do to stop this pain. I am so frustrated i found the woman of my dreams and like that it’s over. Why??? Tell me why is it always me.

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1 in 5 teens had thought about suicide, about 1 in 6 teens had made plans for suicide, and more than 1 in 12 teens had attempted suicide in the last year. As many as 8 out of 10 teens who commit suicide try to ask for help in some way before committing suicide. Reblog if you’re always there to listen.

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Time

They say time is fleeting but time ends for us all it’s how you let it end that counts. I have given to everyone i have met and now i feel like shit, i am in love but i can never be truly with her cause of time and distance. I feel that time has gone by and soon she will leave me behind. I love her with every fiber of my being but time is running out and soon it will and and as always i will be left alone and feel like nothing.

Fighting with my demons

I am an alcoholic . I realized a long time ago i had a problem but i didn’t care i ruined a marriage to a great lady and lost my older kids. I eventually got more kids and another lady. But she turned on me even though i quit drinking. I fight the urge to drink every day and latley i have wanting to drink again . I found a lady that is the woman of my dreams and now i think she wants to be done with me. I haven’t drank any booze in 12 yrs or so . But  she live far away and i think the distance is finally killing our relationship. I love her more than i have any other woman and i wanna be with her but i don’t think she wants me around her .Well guees what i am dewelling on wanting alcohol to numb the pain that is going to come , i am alone with no one here to help me . I am going to lose my fight against being a drunk . And more than likely die in a few years. I hope that the lord can give me the strength to stop myself from destroying my life.

Just for kicks.

Pick 7 artists/bands that you love before reading the questions

What was the first song you ever heard by 1?

Back in Black 1980 i was 10

What is your favourite song of 7?

“I’ll Wait”off the 1984 album

What kind of impact has 2 left on your life?

Has opened up my mind toward all forms of heavy metal music.

What are your favourite lyrics of 5?

“Indestrutable, Determination that is incorruptible.From the other side,a terror to behold.Annihilation will be unavoidable.” ♥

How many times have you seen 4 live?

I wish.

What is your favourite song by 6?

Welcome to the Black Parade

Is there a song by 3 that makes you sad?

When Lova and Hate Collide.

What is your favourite song by 1?

Back in Black.

When did you first get into 5?

Not until the put out 10,000 Fists.

What is your favourite song by 4?

Angel’s Son.

What is a good memory concerning 1?

Seeing them live one last time in 2009.

Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?

“Kiss” off there album Untitled. 

What is your favourite song of 2?

Make me Bad

What song isn’t your favourite of 7?

Jump.

Nothing

43 years ago i was brought into this world and at times i have felt like i didn’t belong here at all. My father didn’t want me so he left and it was just me and my mom then she remarried and all was fine i guess but he always treated me like i was nothing , I have always felt this way cause i have never had anyone but my grandfather and my uncle truly show me any affection. Don’t get me wrong my mom loves me dearly. But i was always nothing even my own grandmother wanted nothing to do with me. I have a brother who i am nothing too and sisters that i am nothing. I could just lay down and die but i always had my kids well the door just slammed on that today and as always i feel like nothing. Why??? Why am i in so much pain ? I have basically been nothing all my life why? Am i hurting so much? I may never understand why i feel this way but i will always keeping going cause just cause i am nothing doesn’t mean i can’t help someone else be something.